I came back from BEA with the resolve to blog daily. Great idea. And then life intervened.
The night before last I woke up with chest pains. I had never had anything like it before. I thought it was temporary but I could not get back to sleep and it was not getting any better. So, I woke my wife up and she did a really good job of not panicking. After all it is always possible to be comfortable at home with your spouse one minute and come home a widow the next.
We have a friend who spent four years nursing his wife dying of lung cancer. He said the hardest thing was the day he came home after she died. It was over. Everything that had structured his life was gone. He wondered now what he would do. He went on and he has now found a new wife.
It just takes me back to the fundamentals of the stories we write. You think you have a life course and then one day you find that the course is gone. That's what happened to Jamie in A Dream Across Time. And it happened again in A Circle of Dreams. These children she had always wanted were not ordinary children and one of them had serious problems. Life happens and your plans are out the window.
For me the other night it was just another reminder that I am getting older and that life happens. They gave me every test in the book and I do not have heart problems or incipient heart problems. We will never know but it was probably a combination of some kind of infection or an esophogeal spasm related to an old automobile accident. Who knows. I'm tired from the emotional trauma but otherwise okay. Just another life lesson.
I'll get on with the brogging I promise. Unless life happens.